BulletGutz

No more

Tue, 10 Jun 2008 18:02:21 GMT

Live journal. I just see no point.

>.

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 22:51:59 GMT

I spoke to and old friend. Cockney accents are soooooooooo sexy :|.

like woah sexy.

omg

I have...

Fri, 30 May 2008 11:34:33 GMT

nothing good to say these days...

And I like my own ocmpany too much. Though I like Phreaker's too...

And he comes to see me in a week or so *squee*. I r happeh. I don't even know who I am writing to...I have like 2 friends on here or something. I should get more some time.

The scaffolding on a building across the street is fucking up our satellite reception. So we complained. Turns out they don't even have planning permission for the work they are having done. :>.

I started Pokemon pearl again with a lvl 1 darkrai I got from Sandhya. It won't listen to me now at level 17. I swear that game is too sensitive to trades. Honestly, it pisses me off. I'm gunna trade my level 70 Garchomp over and pwn the team galactic boss I need to get out the way. I can't be arsed with 10minute battles on level 14 zubats while reading "Darkrai turned away" alot.

Hurhur.

Ooooo

Sun, 25 May 2008 20:17:02 GMT

I bought a t-shirt with a smoking bunny on it, because it amuses me. I wore it to work and some retard went on about how offensive it is.

Clearly a cartoon bunny will die from smoking cigarettes...-.-

I think I have hit art block, right as I got a huge comission.

Lost is such a bollocks programme. Honestly, the storyline is just too far fetched. I don't like my games with more complex storylines than an MMO.

Requiem Bloodymare is a sexy game. It feels fast compared to other MMOs. Sad quests are scarce at some stages. I hope they put more into the older content, rather than the Blizzard approach of "oh...lets just keep adding new stuff :>"

I got age of conan yesterday, but I don't feel like playing it :|. To be honest I want to explore Requiem more.

We've had a really good day in the pub today, alot of beer sold. Mum's in a good mood :). Now I wanna make something big and artsy, really try to explore something. I don't do it anymore. I don't make characters like I used to, I somewhere lost a lot of imagination. It's sad but I think it's because I stopped smoking pot =/. I refuse to ever smoke it as much as I used to, that was just getting so bad. Plus I know my boyfriend hates me doing it and I'd rather keep him than a drug by my side. Drugs don't keep you safe, in fact they can make you vulnerable. They make you wreck your life, friendships and judgement. You follow those who take the same or similar drugs to you, because you know you fit in, you know you are part of something. But that's all you have. Those moments of fake happiness. Then it fades and your life is how you left it, sometimes worse. Those friends go away and only come back to take you further down into the pit which is your existence. You can get addicted to many things, I know this. I am just happy I never lost control and did anything harder than pot. I just kept that one routine, not being swayed to try anything else.

I have a slight obsession with shows like Bones, Dexter and Cold Case :|.

HAHAHAHAHA

Wed, 21 May 2008 17:54:40 GMT

http://reisen.deviantart.com/journal/18428991/

Epic win.

Weeee

Sun, 18 May 2008 19:52:56 GMT

So, sometime in July I am moving to SPAIN. Yeah, that's right. SPAIN. Lololol.

I will not lose Tony over this move, no way. He r mine, even if I bitch at him sometimes by accident :<.

Sid ran off back to the people he lived with. I don't feel sad about it. He made Dave unhappy and he never liked where we live anyways. That and he made the flat stink of poop, so I think it's best all round.

He lives with a couple in a marina now, with one of his many many children. He impregnated every shecat in sight apparently *titter*.

So many comissions to do e_________e.

Sarah Jessica Parker

Tue, 13 May 2008 17:52:12 GMT

Like everyday I read the newspaper on the bus (hey it's free ;} ) and like everyday it features articles on celebrities. Today was all about the Sex In The City movie. Cool, good on 'em for making a film about a popular TV series. I hope Dexter one day gets such glory...anyway. I read the article and studied accompanying pictures.

Sarah Jessica Parker got a huge full page sized picture of her dressed as...a bottle of lilt basically. The dress, totally passable, it detaches attention from her overrated and only OK looking face ( I don't see the fascination with this woman much at all, I think she just looks a bit haggered and cigarette beaten tbh...) and let's face it, she doesn't use wrinkle cream to stay looking yound ;}. To be honest, she is a bit scary looking in my books. Sort of macabre meets guuci.

Now, as an avid reader and watcher of the news, I hear alot about celebrities. Some I dispis(like Amy Winehouse). But I won't use my bias towards them to judge what they are wearing. I use common sense and take everything with a pinch of salt. Anyway my point I am getting to basically is, am I the only person in this world who thinks SJP actually looked a bit of a prick? Especially compared to the other stars of the film? I mean come on:

"Sarah Jessica Parker does Carrie Bradshaw proud as she steps out in all her floral, fascinator finery."
"You look absolutely amazing" - an interviewer said to her at the start.

And there is more. Anyway the dress/tree I am talking about;

My reaction to this:

What should have been said in the papers;
Nushaa: wtf the mole on her chin
whole room on WH: WTF is that on her head?

One thing I did find that I liked:
"
It was the Sex and the City movie premiere in London's Leicester Square last night. Sarah Jessica Parker must have thought it was Ladies day at the races (and we're not referring to her horse-like face this time). Look at the ridiculous excuse for a hat she was wearing.
And because it was Sex and the City, everyone took it upon themselves to wear bright, nauseating and unflattering colours (we're talking to you, Martine) and bright garish lipstick that either screamed hooker or children's entertainer."

Disclaimer: I am not bashing SJP solely, mainly stupidity :} SJP as scary and odd as she is, is after all an idol for some O_o;?

There's no knowing where we're rowing....

Mon, 12 May 2008 19:37:41 GMT

Is it raining? Is it snowing? Is a hurricane a-blowing?

I feel just like this song right now. I am lost in the chaos which others have created, instead of my own. And it annoys me. I want chaos to be mine and for me to be able to stop it. This I cannot stop and I don't like it.

My first written exam was today. It was about family units. I wrote about women who need to know their place and how supermarkets have fucked this country up the ass.

I want to express myself in art again. Now I have not had WoW for so long. I don't feel the urge to play it. I left with a good stash of money and a character fit for levels 70-80. She will never have her epics deleted by me. I will keep them to remind myself of what I have acheieved. It's sad but yeah. When my mum sat down with me and told me she didn't want me playing. I admit I was upset, not because of the, game but because of the social aspect. The friends I have made. But I look at it and I know they will probably still be there. So will the forums. I have faded from WoW and may not go back, though I see it happening for WOTLK.

AOC is going to be the new highlight of my life hopefully. But I doubt it will be anything like when I played wow. Even my drawing stopped when I played wow. I used to draw everyday, even in school I stopped doodling...

2008, My year of gaming.

Tue, 06 May 2008 18:10:22 GMT

Never before have I been excited about a game release. And this year brings 5!

First up, Age Of Conan(AOC). I want this to replace wow. I have no desire to PVE heavily in WoW really anymore. I will not completely quit, and I will get to 80/whatever but I don't think I will return in the way I used to play. I like arting and I enjoy poses. I love the people on Wolfhome, and WoW partly got in the way of them.

Second, Spore creature creator. OK this won't be a heavily played long term one, it isn't an MMO and I get bored of non MMO games. It doesn't have progressive stages in it like the full Spore game will, but I will be getting this nontheless, after all it's been 3 years since I first orgasmed over Spore.

Spore in its entirity! Yes, SPORE IS COMING! Early September it is estimated. I can't wait. I have always looked for games where your character is 100% yours, somethng you can evolve and make unique. No gear, class or race restrictions. It can be as big or as small, was wacky or basic as you wish.

Warhammer Online (WAR). No official date for this yet, but I am down for the beta list 8). Hopefully it'll be soon :o I am really looking forward to it. It looks excellent.

Sabotage

Mon, 05 May 2008 20:54:26 GMT

My mum's pub was sabotaged by an ex employee's boyfriend over £40 my mum doesn't even owe her. Her ex-employee thinks she does.

Now my mum is 1k down and was already in trouble with finaces as it was.

Unfuckingbelieveable.

^___^

Fri, 02 May 2008 20:56:43 GMT

Dave r come home. We had a big cuddle then he ate lots of biscuits.

Sid hasn't hissed at him, neutering FTW lol?

I gunna draw poses now yey! One for myself, cause I want something glowy or something, yeh XD.

Where is Dave?!

Fri, 02 May 2008 18:24:10 GMT

He hasn't come home since last night :< I'm worried he might have been hit by a car or something >.<.

He is gunna get the biggest hug if I see him again D:. I panic quick when it comes to kitties :{.

OH. MY. FUCKING. GOD. SQUEEEE!

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 16:00:37 GMT

I got home today and felt all bleh from being stuck on buses/needing to pee/general post-school feeling. And my mum is all "hai thar ^_^" so me thinking I'm in trouble for something is all "oh...what now?" she's all "what would make your day better?"

Well I couldn't really reply, thinking I'd get a smartass retort and told something horrible so "...sunshine?" was my response.

Mum goes "No, how's about a friend for Dave?!" so I'm thinking ":o we got a kitten?!" so I'm all "omg did you get a kitten?" she's like "look under the chair."

So I look under the chair and see oh so familiar stripes.

IT WAS SIDNEY! Gorgeous sidney who ran away a while ago. Because he was a tom we think he got lost while wandering in such a new area. He ended up semi-living with a couple who have a boat in the marina near where I live (we lives by an canal see) since about June last year. The guy had taken Sid to the vet to get him neutered and the vet found Sid's chip. So at 8:50 this morning my mum gets a phonecall from the local vet. At first she thought Dave had wandered over 2 miles down the road, but it turns out our lovely tabby had found himself a family.

Mum brought him home, I don't know if the guy minded. If Sid doesn't settle in then we'll let him go back to living with the people who adopted him.

I can't believe he's back I R HAPPEH!

Hurrah

Mon, 28 Apr 2008 19:44:05 GMT

I am mentally bored without my boyfriend close to me. I hate this. I feel I have nothing to do, when there is alot that I have left unfinished.

It seems I am being avoided by a "friend" they won't even say hi now. I ask them how they are and they just try to end the convo ASAP. I wish people would be straight and tell me to leave them alone.

Oh well they are on ignore anyways. Screw waiting for them to talk to me, I'm not going to just be a shoulder to cry on anymore. I did that and it got me nowhere.

I'm in melt down where school is concerned. I just wanna leave, get a job and be done with education. My mum won't and never has let me do that when I suggested it. I'm mature enough to accept I fucked up my A levels, yet I am still pushed to carry on by her and I have to be all smiles and sweet about it, through fear of losing my net access all together. Then how will I talk to the one person I love the most, when he isn't here with me?

RIP Smudge

Sun, 09 Sep 2007 11:17:21 GMT

I'm so gutted, last night mum let Smudge out and about 2 minutes later we got a phonecall from the bar downstairs saying a cat had been hit outside. I looked out the window and Smudge was laid on the pavement.

One of the customers in the pub had moved her from the middle of the road to the pavement for us, I was so thankful nothing would have been worse than seeing her mangled. Anyway, the barmaid who was working at the time drove me to the 24hour vet not far from here and they took her in for the night. Nothing was broken including her back, her tail was flicking continuously all the way to the vet. The vet said it looked hopefully and she is probably just in shock and looked like she'd suffered some head injuries (was bleeding from her nose) but it only looked like a vessel had burst because nothing looked damaged.

I called them at 1:30AM because we had a missed call on our phoneline. He said she had died from blood in her brain.

I can't believe she's gone, she was the most beautiful cat I have ever seen.

Left Behind

Thu, 23 Aug 2007 12:48:13 GMT

I feel left behind from all my friends. I stay on AIM and MSN and noone messages me. I try to think of how to help but I never see the person I want to talk to online. So I give up. What's the point when someone I used to admire and reguard as a close friend doesn't bother to AIM me anymore? Or talk to me like they used to. Infact I just feel fogotten.

Oh well, not like they even bother to read my LJ now. Blegh...

So no more BulletGutz I guess, doubt I will be missed.

<('.'<)<('.')>(>'.')>

Sat, 11 Aug 2007 17:50:15 GMT

The buttons at the top of FF windows annoy me.

I have spagetti sauce down my chin.

:) yummy.

Sry

Fri, 10 Aug 2007 15:27:02 GMT

I haven't been around the last few days.

Oh well.

amazon.co.uk

Fri, 27 Jul 2007 17:47:13 GMT

My pissy email to amazon:

When I ordered my DS lite and Pokemon Pearl it stated they items would be delivered on the 30th of July. Now the order has changed to the be delivered between the 2nd and 8th August, which is not acceptable. Unless my goods are dispatched within the next 24hours, I will cancel my order and purchase a nintendo DS and Pokemon game through a reliable and trustworthy retailer.

Unless this is resolved quickly, I will take all my future purchases elsewhere.

AT THE COPA

Tue, 24 Jul 2007 16:05:52 GMT

COPACOBANAAAAA MUSIC AND FASHION WERE ALWAYS A PASSION

AT THE COPAAAAACOBANAAAAAA

....;S I'm now bored with my life.

Hmm

Sun, 22 Jul 2007 18:26:23 GMT

I'm sort of annoyed that I'm not a PosePro dignitary. I've done alot for that site and I'd atleast expect it. But then again I made a post that a certain admin didn't like and deleted.

What I've done for PP:

Been around non-stop for almost 2years.
Been Head of RT
Made an emote :B
Used $20 to stop adverts
Made 2 skins
Was trick or treat
countless RT requests
Helped a crap load of new users

Yet people who have done less than I have are dignitaries. That just gets to me and it's annoying. I don't care about power or a title just the principle of it.

Meh.

Diamond Or Pearl?

Sun, 22 Jul 2007 13:30:29 GMT

I ordered Diamond (don't get it till the 30th but meh, I don't have to leave the house to get it atleast.) Anyone else buying Pokémon diamond/pearl? :o I can't decide if I want a monkeh or a turtle. WHY ARE THEY SO CUTE?!

P.S.

What isn't amazing about that? There is even saxaphone playing...

bye bye posepro

Thu, 19 Jul 2007 19:28:06 GMT

QUOTE

"The thing was closed because 6 or so people were posting applications at a time (it was actually suggested by two mods to close it); and to be honest...not all of those applications are going to make it, and you know that. Making an exception wouldn't hurt, especially since it's just one.

Please do not start arguments on the PosePro staff forums, I will not stress that enough. PM me or Ace if you have a concern."

Maybe I am overreacting, who cares?

Sorry but, making exceptions is NOT how PosePro should work. We are a team, yes. But ADMINISTATORS shouldn't decide what applications are made exceptions for the MODERATOR team. I don't like the way PosePro is being run and I don't want to be part of it because I know that I will not stand a chance against the tyranny that is a certain admin. PosePro has changed since they were promoted and I see nothing good. I see no fairness in proposals without heads being consulted. I see no reason why an admin should decide who is made an exception of for the moderator team, when that is the Gmods choice if I am not mistaken. That is like me and Athati closing the RT apps and someone who is amazing at shading applying and us going "k we make an exception". If mods suggest something, listen. Don't ignore it. This is the same reason I am more or less gone from WH, because the owners don't seem to listen.

I'm not asking for anyone to bow down to ever user and change rules. But I don't appreciate my posts being deleted, are we not mature enough to see a discussion in an app thread? Can you not handle critism? I've learnt and have to deal with critism alot, but no more. I am not taking any commands or orders from someone who makes exceptions because someone is better than others, that is favouritsm.

My enthusiasm, however small is gone from PosePro thanks to the admin which sent me the PM stating the quote at the top. I'm sad this was Siren's app to be honest, I know she is a good moderator but still, why should an exception be made and most of all why post it in the public eye?

The past (almost) two years has been fun, and I wish you all well for the future. I expect this post will probably be edited or deleted by those who don't want it to be seen.

I wanna say thanks for Athati, for being a great person to work with and I'm sorry I have been lax in the last few months I have been on here, I hope you understand.

I wanna say thanks to the old, old RT members, who have stuck through all of the drama and come out the other side without abandoning their positions when the going gets a little tough. Those who have put themselves out and never gotten recognition. I thank the newer members who have participated and made PP a great forum.

And Darkness, if you read these forums. For being the original and great head of RT, I looked up to you back in the days when you had to be a WH member to join you did the hardest job anyone on this site ever had to do, but you did it well.

I'll be around PP sometimes maybe, I'll check back and say hi.

I GIVE IN

Wed, 18 Jul 2007 19:45:12 GMT

my guilt is like too big. :(

I'm gunna go back to WH, until Kit's chat is up then I am gone forever and on there :) I won't be on WH much but I will be on sometimes. I dunno if I'll pay. If I do it'll be the smallest amount ever. I'm still debating it. Up until today I haven't logged into WH for a while. But the guilt of leaving my friends is just...huge. I think about all the times I've stayed up until 3AM just to talk to people. I feel worse of all for Kit, but I know you've probably forgotten about me or something IDK. I'm an rtard.

Dave

Mon, 09 Jul 2007 17:07:31 GMT

I havent posted like for a while. My exams are over (w00t).

We got a new cat, called Dave. He's pretty. I'll post a pic when I take one. Right now he is under my mum's bed with smudge. She ain't too please but mum wanted a new cat a proper 'pub cat'. I'll always miss Sid, no doubt about it but cats like Dave need homes and we have plenty of space here for him. We got Dave in a rescue centre not far from my old house. Going in there made me feel so sorry for them all I wanted them all to take home. Dave stood out over them all because he was so outgoing though. He was jumping on the side of the bars and being so vocal. I was torn between him and an adorable little she cat. But because mum doesn't like she cats much we chose Dave (who was called Sam but mum wanted to call a cat Dave).

I've drawn more, not posted any of it :). I miss my WH friends <3 :(